This title follows the lyrics to Jessie J’s song “Who you are”. You know most times we are expected to keep it together, be perfect, not be sad, always cheerful and bringing joy to others….at least that’s what is usually expected of me. There have been times when I had to keep stuff to myself and act like I was okay, feign a very beautiful smile and make those around me happy. And when I err, I get scared I might lose the things and people I love the most…why? Just cause I feel like I’m damaged goods and others may get to see the “not so together me”
Over time, I’ve learned to admit to myself first and foremost I’m not okay when I’m not…to breakdown and cry when I feel overwhelmed, upset, hurt or alone…same way I get excited and happy about certain things. It doesn’t make me weaker than the next person, it’s just, I’m allowed to have bad days…days when I’m not so hyper (I usually have a natural high). I try to remember I’m only but human and that’s one thing everyone should keep in mind. I’m allowed to be imperfect, flawed, make mistakes and learn from them bearing in mind that though I may not feel good about myself at that point in time, it will still pass and the sun will come up.
So what am I trying to say? As long as you are still trying to be a better version of yourself, then it’s very okay not to be okay. The negative feelings sometimes serve as motivation/inspiration (I know this first hand) because you get to realize you don’t want to feel that way and make a conscious decision to change it. You can’t be strong all the time, feel what you want to feel, fall apart if you have to, but don’t let it control you.
I’d leave you with the words from Jessie… “Tears don’t mean you’re losing, everybody’s bruising, just be true to who you are”
Enjoy your new week krystals, talk to you tomorrow